segment thirty-nine


I ran out to the parking lot and sat down by a lamp post. The busy cars passing by didn't even notice. I wasn't crying or anything like that, I just needed to get away from everyone for a few minutes. My heart sunk again when I saw Taylor sprinting my way. Good God, I had just come out here to get away from him. I didn't need him to follow me.

I sighed and waited for him to appear next to me. As I sat there I noticed a mother and child a little ways away. The kid was crying and pointing at the mall while the mother was trying to calm him. Boy, I can relate to his feeling! I thought and noticed Taylor catching his breath right beside me.

I looked up at him and he looked back at me longingly. "Jennifer, please listen to me. This is the type of stuff that I hate. I didn't mean anything."

"Why should I listen to you. You never listened to me!" I snapped back. There was my pround ego attitude again.

"Look, Jen, I know I've got some explaining to do so will you just let me say my part?" he asked, getting stern.

"Sure," I mumbled and decided to be nice for once.

"Can I sit down?"

"Yea," I mumbled again and scooted over a bit to let him sit beside me. "Now, what was it you we trying to explain to me? It was about Nancy."

"Umm.. well.. look, the only reason I ever asked her to hang out with me in the first place was to get you to notice me again and all. I didn't want to fight with you anymore and I know that was a bad idea."

Now I was confused. "Taylor, the whole time I wasn't mad at you... well, okay, so I was a little. But I wasn't mad enough to ignore you forever. I had been trying to get you to notice me too. Why didn't you just talk to me?"

"Well, I was afraid you would start acting up again and then everything would get worse and all." He stopped to think for a second. "Okay, I very sorry about that. I never ever meant to hurt you in the first place. All I tried to do was tell you nicely that nothing would work out... "

So, does he like me or not? I turned and looked into his eyes. He had finally decided to apologize sincerely for everything. All I needed to know was if anything every would work out, and what he was going to do with Nancy.

"So, do you think you'll be seeing Nancy anymore?"

He looked at me and smiled a bit. "Well, I wouldn't mind being friends with her, but I told you already that long distance relationships don't work out. The same thing has to go for her as for you."

I smiled back. "Are we friends now?"

Taylor gave a small laugh and took my hands into him. I looked down at them in shock. He wasn't trying to start the whole flirty thing going again.

"Of course we're friends. I never wanted to stop being friends. I still like you Jennifer. Right now may not be the right time to start a relationship, but that doesn't mean that we can't be friends. And who knows? Maybe someday we could go out and nothing could get in our way." With that, Taylor reached over and gave me a big friendly hug. I felt tears come to my eyes as I hugged him back.

"I forgive you Taylor," I said softly and enjoyed the quick embrace.

I looked back behind him and saw Isaac and Zac coming towards us. It was time to leave. I was happy and so was Taylor. We had finally made up. Suddenly I saw my life getting better again... or at least at the time...


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